Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of August 21, 1882

Overview

A blur of telegrams, letters, and invitations surrounds the day, while R. tries to manage singers tactfully and recoils from Calderón's sterile religiosity. By evening his melancholy is so deep that Cosima feels only death together would complete the truth of their life.

Content

Monday, August 21:

R. had a good night. Otherwise we are living in a whirl of telegrams in both directions, since great misunderstandings still prevail. At lunch we have our dear Glasenapps. R. is also corresponding with Frl. Malten and Gudehus about appearing again; he sends her his photograph with an inscription, “So, too, thy tear became a dew of blessing”; to Frau Materna, “Kundry here, Brünnhilde there, the work’s bright jewel everywhere.” He strolls in the garden and is gratified by Marke’s affection toward him. Around 7 o’clock he comes to my room; he has just been reading the riddles in Calderon’s La sibila del oriente and feels great aversion toward it; he is disgusted by the hairsplitting, artificial playing with the cross. His mood is melancholy, the sky overcast; I feel that all that is left for us is to die together. And in the evening there is a reception, following which R. is feeling unwell!