Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of April 8, 1869

Overview

Richard is ill and expecting Munich stage director Hallwachs while Cosima writes to the King and then leaves with a heavy heart to meet the children in Zurich. The reunion is joyful, though she sees that the older children look changed and unwell, and she returns to find Richard satisfied with his practical theatrical conference. News of Hans's illness and withdrawal, alongside confirmation of Rienzi's Paris success and Judith Mendes's article, mingles joy with worry.

Content

Thursday, April 8:

R., very unwell, has been told to expect the arrival of the stage director Hallwachs from Munich. I write to the King. At 12 o’clock lunch, and then departure with a heavy heart, since R. looks wretched. I feel more and more clearly how much a separation of even an hour upsets us both; it is really almost impossible.

In Zurich met the children, an afternoon of joy. They are changed and look unwell, though not really ill. A cheerful journey home.

R. still run down, though very satisfied with his conference; the machinist Brandt is understanding and inventive. Everyone to bed.

Great concern over the note Hermine gave me: Hans is ill, for the most part through annoyance over the eternal torments. He no longer visits the school or conducts the orchestra.

News from Paris; the success seems to have been great. Also Mme Mendès has written another very good article, “Richard Wagner—Liberté.”