Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of August 14, 1871

Overview

A troubled guest departs, returning to the misery he had confided to Wagner, while Cosima remains physically weak. Wagner's tender compliments briefly restore intimacy and lightness. The day collapses after a dispute over a palm tree and the children's supposed damage to it, provoking Wagner's anger and leaving Cosima to seek solace on the lake with the children.

Content

Monday, August 14:

Our poor guest takes leave of us and returns to his wretchedness. I am still very weak and worn out. R. inspects my fingers and says, “These are not fingers at all, they are sensitive filaments; they could just as well be attached to wings, as on a butterfly.” And: “Your father is a good man, and the cleverest thing he ever did is now mine!”

The day ended very badly. When I told Jakob to take my palm tree out and take good care of it, he replied with the assertion that the children had torn off the leaves. I denied this; R. confirmed it, whereupon I said, “If the children are doing this, they must be punished for it.” This put R. into such a rage that he forgot himself rather badly.

Sad evening. I go on the lake with the children. Richter has been appointed conductor in Pest.