Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of June 23, 1882

Overview

Family money questions and the legal impossibility of adopting the girls trouble R., but work on the Flower Maidens and the London success of Tristan pull his mind back toward the theater. Even so, memories of Nietzsche and Batz remind him how quickly joy is entangled with distress.

Content

Friday, June 23:

We again have breakfast in the summerhouse, and our conversation leads us to Hans; yesterday I received news that he wishes the 40,000 marks to be used to pay back my 40,000 francs, which Boni will then receive. I find this a good solution, but R. is not satisfied; he does not wish any of the 40,000 marks to be put to use. The impossibility of obtaining permission to adopt Isolde and Eva is also a matter of great concern to him! - As regards practical problems, R. has decided that the Flower Maidens should appear in their costumes from the start, leaving only the headdress to be attended to. Around noon I drive up to the theater and select flowers, with which I adorn the children at home, and R. is satisfied. In the afternoon we drive to the theater, and this flower problem is settled; the throwing of the spear is rehearsed. On our return home we find a letter from Richter, reporting the success of Frisian in London. In the evening Nietzsche returns to memory, after we have been thinking joyfully of Richter! Then Batz, too, unfortunately! . . . R. regrets that there is always something distressing in whatever we discuss.