Wednesday, June 20:
Hülsen’s words to Bronsart have much upset R.; this helplessness in the face of lies and hostility! I no longer feel aggrieved; I just feel as if I were melting away, as if there were nothing of me remaining but a curious mirage.
Cosima's Diaries
Diary Entry of June 20, 1877
Overview
Hostile remarks about Bayreuth and the Ring deeply unsettled R., exposing how powerless he felt against falsehoods and opposition. The diarist responded with a sense of personal erasure, as though nothing solid remained of her own identity.