Wednesday, October 20:
Wretched night, great concern over Siegfried, whose rash gets worse and worse. Worked with the children. R. working on his score.
Our patience is being sorely tried by the fact that we hear nothing about the divorce; we decide to regard this present time as the acme of happiness and to await nothing from outside with impatience. R. asks me only not to tire myself out so much with teaching and tending the children. He says he knows I desire to purchase our happiness through self-sacrifice, but this upsets and pains him.
In the afternoon with Lusch to her piano lesson at Countess Bassenheim’s. In the evening D. Q., the wedding of Camacho. R. on Cervantes: “Certainly he is depicting himself in D. Q., thus playing around with himself and his fate.” Letter from Judith.