Friday, August 6:
"Undeserving man, how happy I am! When I wake up in the morning feeling rather tired, I have only to tell myself that you are still alive and I am full of cheer." I tell him that I had read Der Mann von 50 Jahren during the night and had been greatly moved by Hilarie's renunciation. "Yes, yes, I know, you would dearly like to introduce some of that renunciation stuff here, but..." He broke off his banter.
My main aim is certainly to dispel all passionate feelings and in this way to atone until I can make things good again. I ink in the score, R. copies, Lusch dictates her letter to her father.
Letter from the Italian Boito, who writes that Tristan was a revelation to him, which reminds us that R. had intended his Tristan for Italian singers, though naturally not the present ignoramuses. Boito also says that the number of supporters for R. in Italy will continue to grow. Kietz wrote yesterday that this music would make headway in France, like homoeopathy and many other German inventions!
In the evening again played two Haydn symphonies as piano duets. Worried because Claire does not write to me.