Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of March 12, 1874

Overview

R. is physically miserable yet still presses on with work, while the day is clouded by social tensions and awkward confidences that leave the writer feeling trapped between loyalty and discretion. Troubles over the fountain and the evening gathering only deepen the sense of strain, though she tries to soften the mood with conversation and a little moral encouragement.

Content

Thursday, March 12:

R. had a bad night and complains bitterly to the doctor when he comes to visit him; all the same, he works. Richter writes, happy about the news he has received: he will manage to get himself freed.

Frau v. Meyendorff has chosen me to be her confidante, but how can I give advice between her and my father? I cannot even tell her that I knew about my father’s intentions long ago. Continuing unpleasantnesses regarding the fountain.

In the evening R. goes to the Thursday gathering at Councilor Dittmar’s house; I pass the time conversing with the two big girls and seeking in a joking way to implant the good seed in them. May God give His blessing!