Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of February 4, 1874

Overview

News that Schott may be interested in the proposal offers a brief opening, but the day is otherwise shadowed by delay and tension around the King’s response and the looming public consequences. Her failing eyes and growing isolation deepen the gloom, and she ends the day feeling unable to speak or move outward into the world.

Content

Tuesday, February 4:

Herr Schott seems interested in R.'s proposal. Yesterday R. sent off his letter to the King. I have not read it. Went to the photographer's with the children in their costumes for the King. Returned home late, which vexes R.; he is in a state of torment just now, wondering whether the date can be adhered to if the King now gives the guarantee, and he is worried about the turmoil which will result.

A gloomy evening in consequence. My sick eyes condemn me to idleness, and I am becoming more and more turned in on myself. At times I feel that I shall never be able to speak again.