Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of April 5, 1869

Overview

Nausea, redecorating worries, and the Rheingold problem keep Cosima on the sofa while Richard goes through the work with Richter. Both she and Richard are unwell, and she concludes that they can live only with and for one another because even friendly outside contact is damaging. A little Charmides and Richter's one o'clock departure close a strained, enclosed day.

Content

Monday, April 5:

Feelings of great nausea and worries about the redecorations. I spent the day on the sofa, listening to R. going through Das Rheingold with Richter, and embroidering.

R. himself is very unwell; the trouble has so upset us both. I realize that we can indeed live only for and with each other; all contact with the outside world, however friendly the go-between, is harmful to us.

In the evening read a little of Charmides, but did not get far. At 1 o’clock our good Richter made his departure.