Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of October 25, 1881

Overview

After bidding farewell to Joukowsky, Richard spent the day in speculative talk ranging from India and the virgin mother to the peculiar destinies of women and children. His attempted solitary walk ended in alarming physical collapse, leaving him convinced he could not take another step in Bayreuth. The evening's ghost story brought only partial distraction, while Richard remained haunted by the vividness and immediacy that older literature could still command.

Content

Tuesday, October 25:

R. had a restless night. He says goodbye to our friend Jouk, whose servant Pepino has preferred to remain here, out of fear of being left behind in Italy. We talk a lot about this singular case.

After lunch a new installment of India keeps us occupied, and when I remark that India also possesses the legend of the virgin mother, R. says, "Yes, that suggests that woman was here first - that is to say, outside of time." Today he attempts to go out alone, but returns home in great distress. He says people in the palace gardens must have thought he was drunk; he leaned for support on every tree. He will not take one further step here.

In the evening I read aloud one of Apel's ghost stories, "Paulinzell," though it does not please R. as much as the first. However, he likes the way it makes use of the events of that time, the Battle of Mockern, etc. He feels such vivid descriptions would no longer be possible.