Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of August 30, 1881

Overview

Richard works productively on his article, reading it aloud to Cosima, and dispatches a firm letter to Dr. Strecker over a publication dispute. Though Brandt's vocal practicing occasionally grates on his nerves, the evening recovers into warmth as Richard regales the company with vivid theatrical memories from his youth, expertly mimicking the Viennese dialect. He is especially tender toward Cosima, confiding that without harmony between them his entire existence loses its footing, and he reflects that music embodies a kind of hopeful resignation.

Content

Tuesday, August 30:

R. had a good night and, after the rug has been hung up, he goes to his work, which he then reads to me. Friend Marianne Brandt enlivens the house with solfeggios and the sounds of Kundry, which at times get on R.’s nerves. But he goes to his score after writing a friendly but determined letter to Dr. Strecker on the question of publication.

He was somewhat out of spirits in the evening, but he soon recovers and gives us dramatic accounts of theatrical experiences from his youth, including Fortunatus' Abenteuer in Vienna, splendidly imitating the Viennese accent. To me he is extravagantly kind; when I come downstairs in the afternoon, he says he is quite beside himself at the thought that he has been unfriendly toward me. And in the evening: “The fact that I have put up with all the vexations and the difficulties shows what a good life I have, but if I am not in harmony with you, then it all comes to a halt.”

“In music lies hopeful resignation,” R. says today. [A sentence based on untranslatable wordplay omitted.]