Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of February 18, 1881

Overview

Wagner's persistent finger pain colors the morning, and his contempt for the quotation-heavy pedantry of German scholarship makes for lively lunchtime conversation. The unexpected arrival of a quiet Scottish donor provides a pleasant contrast in the evening, during which Rubinstein performs Bach fugues that Wagner likens to the teeming, ordered life of Cervantes's stories. After the guests depart, Wagner and Cosima celebrate their solitude with champagne, tender reminiscences, and fond reproaches, savoring the happiness of being alone together.

Content

Friday, February 18:

A good night, but his fingers are still painful. At lunch, and also yesterday, he tells me how revolting he finds the German scholar in this book of Pott's; there is no need for him to have a single idea, it is all nothing but quotations; W. v. Humboldt seems to R. very shallow. Then R., with much enjoyment, quotes several things from today's Fliegende Blatter. After lunch a portrait of George Eliot gives us quite a shock on account of its ugliness.

We go for a walk; the weather is not particularly good. We watch a blackbird busily bathing in a little puddle beside the fence and then flying into our garden. In the evening we receive a visit from Herr Irwine, the donor who wishes to remain anonymous, a quiet and serious Scotsman. Rub. plays Bach organ fugues. R. says to me, "This is something rather like Cervantes's stories, but nobody would understand what I mean." I think I do - he means all the life, the apparent confusion, which in fact represent the variegated and ordered life of Nature, in which one can discern accents of supreme passion, of a deeply sorrowing sensibility. Then R. gets Rub. to play Mendelssohn's Hebrides Overture and delights in this beautiful work, though he feels it requires a program; for when he heard it for the first time, in Leipzig, under the title of Hebrides Overture - which meant nothing to him - he did not understand it at all. My feeling is that in this work the heroic saga has been turned into a fairy tale, Brünnhilde into the Sleeping Beauty.

When our friends have gone, we remain together for a while. The Scotsman made a good impression on him, but he remarks that Nature is now no longer producing beautiful mouths! And then he exclaims: "How nice to be alone! We must keep inviting people to our house, so that we can always enjoy this happiness again" - and he sends for a half-bottle of champagne, so that we can drink to that. And memories return, and tender reproaches are made to me, and when I take them to heart, we laugh together. [Yesterday, when I spoke of the doubts I previously had whether my way of doing things was right for my children, R. said, "Well, your eldest daughter is now a real enchantress."]