Cosima's Diaries

Diary Entry of February 24, 1870

Overview

The children’s excitement over the Fritschi procession makes the day outwardly festive, with a meal at the Hotel du Lac and carnival scenes in Lucerne. Letters from Bucher and Hans reopen the divorce wound so sharply that Cosima can hardly bear Hans’s handwriting. Night contemplation of the moon and Wagner’s melancholy reading of a stuffed duck turn the entry from spectacle toward guilt, sorrow, and the burden of having hurt another person.

Content

Thursday, February 24:

Great excitement in the juvenile world — today is the Fritschi procession! We drive to the Hotel du Lac, have a meal, and from there watch the very pretty procession. I find myself standing beside Archduke Heinrich, who married an actress and now lives in Lucerne in a kind of exile.

In the afternoon R. brings me from the post office a letter from my friend L. Bucher, who assures me that Simson, the lawyer, is an honest man, then a letter from Hans to our lawyer — he intends to go to Berlin at the end of March. It moves me terribly, I can scarcely look at the handwriting. God preserve you, my children, from such emotions!

Last night, when I could not sleep, I watched the moon, which was just rising (3:30). “Star of the silent night!” I cried out to its friendly face, and sank into deep contemplation! The hardest thing, children, is to have brought sorrow on a human being — God save you from that fate!

What the children particularly enjoyed looking at were the stuffed birds. A duck drew R.’s attention, too. “What an expression — Tristan und Isolde, the whole melancholy of life!” In the evening Hermes Odysseus, as a sort of spring god. (The chief dancer at yesterday’s carnival ball is reported to have been the rabbi!)